poems

i need nothing.
i want everything.
i seek everywhere.
i find anything.
never the right thing
nor the right place
what about the wrong time
and forgetting my line.
fill me in, for this soul has lost a piece within.

you first tore me up
playing games
with my cracking glass
my case is breaking
the leaks
seeping in the unwanted
you got to close
and i freaked
you broke my boundaries
opened my fence and forgot
my insecurity
you cant come in without
grabbing me closely
or letting me slip away
why did you choose
to let it be this way
catching me again
your sure to find me here
wandering aimlessly
to encage myself
out of the clear
will you embrace me then
or let this all go again
will i ever know
not unless you ever show
me, how much you really care
testing how much i can bear.
with one action,
a simple cause of comotion
just show me its okay
everythings going to work
out one day
it may not be perfect
but what ever really is


i need a ciggarette...... ::
im tired of pretending im not so strong as i say
its the middle of my life and the worlds made me its prey
i cant help but feeling like im dieing on the inside
cause every one of you, want me there without my pride
i try and hold my head up, smile and pretend im okay
ive acted enough, and now i cant find a damn word to fucking say
can anyone forgive me, whatever it is ive done
and just hold me close one last time and tell me its all going to be fun
will you see me tomorrow and have that chance to hold me close
what if we dont make it, and it may have ment to me the most
can you live with leaving me like this, suffering and alone
please just hold me close and comfort me with your words soft tone
cause i may not have tomorrow or this week or next
but i know i have now, and i will soon be laid to rest
life isnt forever, nor is this pain
but please help me deal with it, can you forgive me just a 'tad'
i would not of done this to me or you if i knew it would be this bad